Tuesday, April 17, 2012

In the Waiting Room

I was reminded last night just why God chose Adam for me. He gets me. Like really really gets me and I get him and its just good. We are in this weird transitional stage that I like to call 'the waiting room'. We have been in this stage for two ish years now. First it was waiting for A to graduate. then it was waiting for me to get into my program. then it was waiting for A to find a job. and now its waiting to get engaged. (and this is by far the hardest waiting room I have ever been in.) and later it will be waiting to be able to afford a house and then waiting for a baby and waiting for things that I don't even know I will be waiting for. There's a whole lot of waiting that has happened, is happening, and will happen. In this season especially I have learned to trust the Lord. Like fully trust him. 

Its so easy for people to tell you "just trust god, he's got a plan for your life" but when you're in the waiting room and you just want things to start moving along it can be down right HARD. Anger and resentment creep in and you start to wonder whether God even remembers you. It feels like you're sitting in a literal doctor's office and someone comes in after you and signs in and gets called back to see the doctor before you do. it just doesn't seem fair. 

I have had to learn to trust God and understand that there is purpose to be found in the waiting room. Over the last year I have really paid close attention to what God is trying to teach me while I wait. 

Once I realized that God was using this time to prepare me I wanted to know exactly what that meant. I wanted to know how I could use this time of waiting to glorify God. Ultimately anything in my life is because of Him. He deserves all honor and glory. 

I started reading back on old journals the other day and reading old prayers I had written. and now years later seeing how God has answered a lot of them. This just assured me that God never forgets his people and he's not going to start with me.

I have been persistently seeking God's will in everything I do. I have persistently been seeking time to just talk to Him. 

I have surrendered all of my fears, doubts, concerns & worries to Him. I have surrendered my anxious thoughts. 

So now here I sit. Still in the waiting room. But now with purpose and hope and an enthusiasm to follow Him and trust Him.

I know that God will give me the desires of my heart. I know that if I show him gratitude, persistently seek him, and surrender my life to Him He will take care of me.



7 comments:

  1. Girlfriend, we are sitting right next to each in that waiting room. Seriously, I could have written this post myself. The part about feeling like people who came in after you are seeing the doctor first is TOTALLY how I have felt. But, there have been so many blessings in this waiting room. I have been given some amazing ministry opportunities that I wouldn't have had if I hadn't been stuck in that waiting room. ;) I love you and I know that the end of this waiting season is almost up for the both of us. I hope that you (and me!) will continue to let the Lord mold you in this season while you have a spirit of contentment and JOY. Afterall, there will be more waiting seasons. And we need to face them with faith, trust, and joy. I'm surrreeee working on that right now. :) I love you little lady and I am so thankful for you and your heart!

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  2. If we learn how to cope with that waiting game we will be a-okay, and I think you are learning how to master the game pretty well. The key to it is trusting in God's promises, and you know that sista! You are SO right, he is not going to forget you, but I know exactly how it feels. Read Psalm 13 :) it makes my heart happy (the psalm I read at Passion) !! I love you so much Jame!

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  4. Wow just what I needed to hear. I so often forget that God never forgets me and there is a reason I am waiting.

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  5. Hey! I know exactly how you feel! I've bee nin those 'waiting room' shoes before waiting to get engaged, after everything else fell into place and then BOOM, we did. We had a fabulous wedding and a great first year together...since then we've been in that waiting room again and it's been even harder this time as we struggle to have a baby. Reading this though I was a little more at peace with our situation. Waiting isn't fun, but worth it in most cases! Hang in there!

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  6. You are so right about always waiting for something...so true! I think that God reveals SO much to us in times of waiting and those are the times when we learn some of the most important lessons. Thank you for this reminder...we all need it! Love you!!!

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  7. Jamie, I am so grateful I stumbled upon this past post of yours! I have been following your blog for several months and just browsed into your past posts yesterday & I KNOW that it was God's will for me to find this post of yours so that I could be encouraged. Can't tell you what a blessing it is to read the words of someone else who has been where I am right now, sitting in that very same waiting room. I am thankful for your sweet heart and willingness to be real in this little corner of the internet. Grateful that blogging allows others to find support and strength and encouragement from the vastness of God's Kingdom!

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