over the last month I have really been focusing a lot on joy. At church we have been doing a series called the immeasurable life which is centered around ephesians 3:20 (now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we could ask or imagine according to his power that is at work within in us) and the idea that the immeasurable life can only be found through living a life that glorifies god. I have also been doing the james study on she reads truth which has really revealed a lot to me about the way I spend my time and the "things" that I value as important. For the past week I have also been doing the john piper quest for joy study. all of these things have one central theme in common--living a life that honors god will ultimately bring joy to my life.
All of these things combined have led me to a place where I feel it's necessary for me to have a month of no spending. I need to re-center my focus and re-evaluate what I view as necessary. I have a horrible habit of being "swipe happy" without even giving a second thought as to what is in our bank account. I know this only leads to destruction. I don't want my joy to be wrapped up in things of this world. I want my treasure to be stored up in heaven (Matthew 6:19-21).
So what exactly will this look like for me? Obviously I can't spend $0...we have a mortgage and bills to pay, I have a car payment, I have to buy gas to get to work, we need groceries, etc. but what I don't need are random things from Target, Chick-fil-a breakfast on Fridays, bath and body works candles, or clothes. As Nicole put it yesterday when I was talking to her about it.. this isn't a legalistic thing, it's about my heart being right. My goal is to spend $0 on myself--on things that are of this world.
I'm praying so deeply that God would use this time to heal me of the guilt I have associated with my consumption of STUFF. I pray God gives me opportunities to bless others with the resources that I usually use on myself.
I just want a joy filled life that glorifies God.