Tuesday, January 7, 2014

grace not perfection

as a new wife and a new teacher there is certainly a lot of "newness" in my life. as with anything new it takes time to learn and time to grow and time to figure out exactly what you're doing. I'm 6 months into this whole wife thing and 4 months into being a teacher. it's safe to say I still have no idea what I'm doing in either area. with that comes a lot of disappointment and sense of failure. even though I know I'm doing all I can it still haunts me that I'm not perfect enough. I'm not doing it right. I'm not good.

When I was sitting down to make some goals and plans for the new year and I was thinking of things I wanted to do better or things I wanted to change. I thought about how much I intensely love being a wife and a teacher and I thought about how I still just don't feel like I'm 100% getting either right. I know I do good things as a wife and I know there are moments where I feel like a great teacher but the truth is I feel inadequate more than anything. but what I needed to realize is that it's impossible to be perfect. It's okay to not do everything right. that's why jesus came. that's why jesus died on the cross. for grace. so that I could be a failure and a sinner and still be loved unconditionally and grow in every area of my life without fear.

I want to focus on goals every month. I want to accomplish things. I want to be a great wife and a great teacher. but ultimately I want to allow myself to try new things without fear. I want to grow as a wife and serve my husband without worrying about whether it's good enough or not. I want to teach my students and love them and show them grace and help them understand that I make mistakes too. here's to grace, not perfection in 2014!





9 comments:

  1. Amen, amen, amen. I had a long talk with another first year teacher in my grade level about not feeling adequate in what we do and not being allowed to make mistakes. It burns you out, and so unbelievably fast! I'm trying to give myself more grace, especially in the teaching area, because even if others don't extend that grace to me then at least I'm not putting unrealistic expectations on myself. "Grace above perfection," absolutely this year!

    xoxo

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  2. love love love this! I'm continually reminding myself of grace, not perfection. There are so many things that I feel the need to be or do perfectly. This is a great reminder, thanks!!!
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  3. You nailed this one Jamie!! Thanks for being such a honest person, I love that about you. Cheers to a NEW YEAR love! XoXo!!!!

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  4. You are so incredibly wise and that is beautiful! I totally agree with you, it is something I need to remember too! On another note, I have been reading your blog for over a year now (and also totally creeping on you on instagram and twitter ;) but from everything I have seen of you, I can just tell you are an absolutely INCREDIBLE teacher. It is apparent that you love your students and you love what you do, and that already makes you one of the best teachers out there!

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  5. I loved reading this post! You really hit the nail on the head & I so needed to hear this right now :)

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  6. Love how you are sharing your heart about this! I think every teacher feels like that their first year...they want to do an amazing job, kill themselves trying to do it and still feel like they have no idea what they are doing (I still believe student teaching doesnt 100% prepare you for when you have 25-30 kids on your OWN with no other teacher in the room). You are COMPLETELY capable of being an amazing teacher....they would not have hired you otherwise. No teacher is perfect..always room for growth. Thanks for the wonderful reminder!

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  7. Yes! I too worry about being the perfect girlfriend and student teacher. I fear what will happen if I'm not doing everything perfect. Thankful for the grace of Jesus and His guidance in all situations. Thank you for this reminder! And LOVE that photo of you & A!

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  8. Hi Jamie! I just had to reach out & share with you. I am new to following your blog but have been following you on Instagram for a while. You are such a doll, and always always an inspiration. You have inspired me to make some changes in my life & even my husband has made some changes. We've started back to school & tonight we are starting a bible reading plan together. Your posts over the course of the past few months have played a part in some of it & I just wanted to share that with you! I hope you are enjoying your weekend!

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  9. I just stumbled upon your blog this morning and I'm pretty sure this post is EXACTLY what the Lord wanted me to read. I am also a brand new teacher and brand new wife. Especially towards the end of the last semester, I realized that I wasn't really excelling in one area of my life and then leaving others to fall behind... nothing seemed to be meeting the mark! Have you seen Emily Ley's adorable "Grace, Not Perfection" prints and shirts? That is going to be my theme for the rest of the year. Thanks for the renewed perspective. (:

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