Friday, November 14, 2014

Still I will Trust in You...


As I near the end of this pregnancy journey I can't help but being immensely joyful in this season. I can't even begin to explain the emotions I have felt over the last nine months. To say pregnancy is the hardest thing I have ever had to do is a complete understatement. To give myself fully to another has been the most challenging, yet rewarding, experience of my life. Being pregnant has taught me so much about myself and so much about God. Throughout every difficult moment I chose to trust in Jesus. My prayer became still I will trust in You...

I spent the first twenty-five weeks of pregnancy sick. I had no energy, I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep. I had to rely on God so much in those weeks just to get me through the day. I found myself so defeated in those moments, yet His reassuring word kept pressing on my heart and I found myself constantly praying, still I will trust in You...

We made the decision after Christmas to go off birth control and we were pregnant the first week of March. Pregnancy came easy to us. We never thought it would be like that. I have feared my whole life that getting pregnant would be difficult for me. God chose to use this as a complete blessing and surprise in our lives. He has used this difficult pregnancy to teach me complete and utter dependence on Him and to trust Him in all my days.

As the days of becoming a new mommy set in and I am plagued with exhaustion, my prayer will continue to be still I will trust in You. I have seen the full goodness of the Lord over this pregnancy and I will continue to trust His plan for my life in every season, difficult or not.

p.s. a little baby update--as of Wednesday I am 2cm dilated and 75% effaced. My midwife says she doesn't anticipate me making it to my due date..so we wait : ) 

3 comments:

  1. Beautiful post! The Lord is SO good! I can't wait to see some posts featuring your sweet baby boy :)

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  2. I love this! I am right there with you; pregnancy is all about giving yourself fully to someone else, and it is more challenging than so many people talk about! Congratulations on being so close to the end of your pregnancy. Can't wait to see pictures of little Bennett.

    xoxo

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  3. Praying for you and loving you from afar, sweet friend! I loved reading your heart on this.. XO

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