Wednesday, December 17, 2014

First Christmas Picture..Nailed It!

"God, I know I ask so many questions. It's because being a mom is the toughest privilege I've ever loved.  I don't want to mess this up! So I simply offer my willingness to be a great mom today. That's all I have to give. I trust You to fill in the gaps and give me the wisdom, patience, and discernment that will be required of me. I love this child I call my own, but in reality this child is Yours first and You know them best. Thank You for the honor to join You on this journey of walking this precious person toward physical, emotional, and spiritual maturity." 
-Lysa TerKeurst

yes. yes. YES!

The last two weeks have been the hardest and BEST weeks of my life. Learning how to navigate my new role as a mom has been so incredibly humbling. I have never needed Jesus more. The nights where he just won't sleep and screams his head off for 3 straight hours, the days where I can't seem to produce enough milk to keep him satisfied, these moment require me to rely on Him more than I ever have in my life. And I am SO thankful for this opportunity. Besides being Adam's wife, being Bennett's mom is the greatest thing to ever happen to me.

And side note.. my husband ROCKS at being a dad. We are so thankful for him.

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Happy One Week, Bennett! {video}

I can't believe our little guy has already been here for a full week! It seems like we were just getting ready to go to the hospital to have him, yet it feels like he's been here all along. It's funny how that works. I'm not sure how we ever lived without him! Sure the nights are long and breast feeding is more challenging than I ever thought possible, but the joy this guy brings to us is unreal. He is just so perfect.

To celebrate BT's one week birthday I wanted to share his first few days in the hospital and going home : ) My bff Nicole came to Georgia all the way from Mississippi to film this for us and I could not be more thankful. These memories she has created for us will last a lifetime. I am SO thankful for talented and giving friends!!


Bennett | baby
from 314 Productions on Vimeo.

Monday, December 8, 2014

I never knew...

The saying "I never knew how much I loved your dad until I saw how much he loves you" has never been more true! It has been so much fun watching Adam become a dad. Before Bennett arrived Adam was really nervous and unsure. Watching him take on his new role as Bennett's dad has been the most amazing part of this process. I could watch them together all day!! Makes my heart so happy to know BT has the best daddy around!

photo by nicole

Saturday, December 6, 2014

Bennett's Birth Story

Photo by Nicole

This has the potential to be extremely long and extremely detailed. Please know I am mainly doing this for myself and do not expect you to read every single word : )

On Wednesday, December 3rd I had my 39 week appointment with my midwife. I knew going into the appointment that I wanted to ask about an elective induction. I was due the next day and was feeling pretty miserable. When I went in for my appointment my midwife checked me and I had not made any progress in about 2 weeks (3cm, 70-75% effaced, -2). I asked about the possibility of inducing in the next few days and to my surprise my midwife was completely on board. She said I was a perfect candidate for induction and she saw no reason why we couldn't do it. She gave me the option of Thursday, Friday, Saturday, or Sunday.

After my appointment I called Adam and we discussed our options. We felt like Thursday would be the best day. It was his due date, there weren't a lot of inductions scheduled, and we would be able to have most of the weekend at home instead of in the hospital.

I spent the rest of the day running around with my mom making sure everything was ready and we got a mani/pedi : ) Towards the end of the day I got a call from my doctor's office letting me know that I had been bumped from the induction schedule because of an emergency induction. She told me I could move my induction to Friday or switch to the other hospital in town. I was pretty bummed but we ultimately decided to just switch to the other hospital (both are really really good so it was not a matter of which was better we had just chosen the other one because we knew several people that worked there).

Wednesday night we went to dinner and spent the rest of the night making sure all our bags were packed and everything was ready! It still had not hit me what we were actually getting ready for.

Thursday morning we were up early and out the door. We met my parents for breakfast at Chickfila before heading to the hospital. We got registered and admitted into our room pretty quickly. As soon as we got to our room I changed into the hospital gown and the process quickly began. They hooked me up to the monitors, checked all my vitals, and started pitocin (around 8:30am).

Gradually over the next few hours the pitocin was increased. The contractions were about three minutes apart and lasting about a minute each. With each passing hour the contractions got worse and worse but they were not unbearable. I spent most of the day switching between walking the halls and laying in the bed. Around 2:45 I decided to get my epidural so they could break my water in hopes that things would speed up. My midwife came in and checked me and I was 4cm. The pitocin was increased, my water was broken, and we continued to wait. Obviously after this point I was bound to the bed since I was numb and I got really bored and antsy!

Around 7:30 my midwife checked me again and I was only at 5cm. Again my pitocin was increased and my midwife said she would be back in three hours to check me again. At this point I got a little discouraged and really felt like we were either going to be in labor a lot longer or this whole thing would end in a c-section which I really didn't want.

Around 9:30 the nurse came in and asked how I was doing. I told her I was feeling some pressure and was starting to feel nauseous. Literally two minutes later I started throwing up. So lovely. I continued feeling pressure so the nurse called my midwife to come over and check me. As soon as she checked me she said I was completly dilated and the pressure I was feeling was Bennett's head! She asked if I was ready to push. I was so caught off guard because I had made such little progress all day and then all of a sudden it was time! My grandparents, in-laws, and dad came in to say bye and then we got ready to push. Adam and my mom stayed in the delivery room.

At 9:51 I started pushing. 15 minutes later, at 10:06 pm Bennett Tucker was born! He weighed 8lbs 7oz and was 20in long. I could not believe how quickly I pushed him out! After spending over 14 hours in labor I assumed I would be pushing for a while.

I honestly could not have asked for a better labor or delivery. Even though it was an extremely long day it ended with the most amazing delivery and I am SO thankful for that. I did have a few complications during delivery (1st degree tear, laceration, and extreme bleeding) but overall everything went extremely smooth!

Bennett has been a dream and is making my life as a mama better than I could have ever imagined. I can't wait to share more updates soon!

This blog post brought to you by our 1am feeding ; )

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

December Goals

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Happy December...aka official BABY MONTH! Are y'all tired of me talking about it yet?! Ha! I still cannot believe that Bennett has not come--my midwives were convinced he would be early! Either way I am done with work until he makes his debut and that is a sweet sweet feeling : ) We go back to the doctor in the morning and I am praying I have made a little progress since my last visit.

Here are a few goals I'd like to accomplish this month...

1. Meet my son : )
2. Start Christmas traditions with Bennett (Pink Pig, the "real" Santa, Lake Lanier lights)
3. Finish our 3-in-1 walk-in closet/office/guest room project (so excited to share more about this soon!!)
4. Work on Lara Casey's goal setting series for 2015 and create a clear vision of what I want this new year to be all about!
5. Post my 2014 year in review post! You can see previous year's posts here, here, here, and here.

I don't anticipate I will be doing much more than snuggling with my newborn all month so I think these are so fun, and reasonable, goals to accomplish! I can't believe we are already in the last month of 2014!