Friday, January 30, 2015

January Favorites

The ending of this month is so bittersweet for me. Bitter because maternity leave is over and I have to go back to work. Sweet because January is always a tough month for me. The hype of the holiday season is over and it's just a cold and dreary month. We had way too many dark, rainy days this month and it just consumed me with sadness. I am such a happier person when the sun is out!

Even though this month wasn't my favorite I wanted to share a few things I was loving...



I got this Kate Spade watch as a birthday present from my in-laws and I love it! I was due for a new watch after my old one shattered.

This Loren Hope cuff was a gift from Adam and it's the perfect addition to my every day stack.

I picked up this Mario Badescu facial cleanser early in the month and have really been enjoying it!

Ulta was having a sale on Hot Tools curling irons so I picked up this one in rose gold. I have had the same curling iron since high school so I was definitely in need of a new one!

This Deboarah Lippmann nail polish is the perfect rose gold!

During a shopping trip at Nordstrom Rack at the beginning of the month I picked up a new Philosophy body wash and love it!

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

mom thoughts

"Becoming a mother requires breaking up with so many parts of ourselves that we used to love--all that free time and sleep and selfish ability to whatever we wanted pretty much whenever was the most convenient for us. But God--His call will always blow our lives and plans apart with Holy, unexpected invitation."



I was telling someone the other day that half the time I still view myself as a carefree, nineteen year old, college student, and the other half a twenty five year old wife and mother. It's a weird place. I still have so many selfish moments where I just want Bennett to sleep so I can do something for MYSELF. But then I have moments where I am overcome with so much thankfulness that God chose ME to be a mom. A MOM. I don't take this for granted for one second.

Adam and I take turns waking up with Bennett in the middle of the night to eat. I have the 3am shift and Adam has the 6am. In those quiet moments when the rest of the world is asleep and it's just me and him I am so overwhelmed. I have never felt a love like this before. It makes all the hard days of pregnancy seem like a distant memory and makes me feel like I could possibly do it again one day (something I wasn't so sure of a few months ago).

Our days with Bennett are not always easy. We do not have an easy baby. It has been a constant battle to find the perfect combination of the correct formula and medication since he was born to make him feel comfortable. It has been 7 weeks of a lot of trial and a LOT of error, and even though we've settled into more of a routine there are still days where it just doesn't add up and he is left with terrible reflux and there is NOTHING we can do to help. That's such a hard place to be as a parent. But just how my pregnancy troubles pale in comparison to the joy I am experiencing as a mom, I know these tough newborn days will feel like light years away way too soon.

I am working really hard to not wish these days away. I want to soak up every second of his sweet baby cuddles, even if he is screaming in pain. I want to practice patience and selflessness and give my whole self to taking care of him and making him as happy as possible. I want to be a great mom.

I know this was all over the place, but that's what happens when your heart is exploding with words at 3:30am and you just have to get it down before you forget. I never want to forget these moments. Husband asleep next to me, baby stirring as he tries to fall back asleep in his swing. I want this moment to last forever.

Monday, January 12, 2015

Market

This past weekend Adam and I drove into Atlanta to see my mom at market! My mom is a rep for a home accessories company and has a showroom at the Mart. Pretty much for as long as I can remember it has been a tradition to go down and see my mom during the January and July shows. This time was extra fun because we got to take Bennett for the first time : )

shop our looks: (me) top, pants, shoes, baby carrier. (adam) pullover

My mom's line has a ton of really great pieces but I am especially loving some of their new mirrored pieces. I am such a sucker for mirrored furniture!




I wasn't able to do too much exploring in other showrooms because I had Bennett so I went up again a few days later and was able to do a little shopping in the apparel mart (which is where I got the statement necklace below this time last year!)

shop my look: top, pants, shoes, bracelet, necklace

Looking forward to heading back again at the end of the month for the apparel show!

Thursday, January 8, 2015

January Goals


I say this every year but I would really be okay if we could just skip through the next three months. January-March cause me so much weather related depression. Lucky for me I am on maternity leave for the next month so I can soak up all the warm baby snuggles I want instead of being out in the cold : )

December goals
1. Meet my son
2. Start Christmas traditions with Bennett (Pink Pig, the "real" Santa, Lake Lanier Lights)
3. Finish our 3-in-1 walk-in closet/office/guest room project. 
4. Work on Lara Casey's goal setting series for 2015 and create a clear vision of what I want this year to be all about!
5. Post my 2014 year in review post!

January goals
1. Work on Lara Casey's goal setting series for 2015.
2. Continue working on getting Bennett on a consistent schedule before I go back to work.
3. Finish reading Make it Happen and Made to Crave
4. Clean out hall closet and laundry room
5. Finish planning my BFF's bachelorette party!


Sunday, January 4, 2015

Bennett | 1 Month



Bennett is one month old today! I honestly cannot believe I have been a mama for a whole month. It has flown by so fast! This past month has been a complete mix of challenging and rewarding. Honestly the first month is pure survival..learning how to be a mom is tough! Every day is different and some days are better than others but overall Bennett has been a dream! Here are some stats and updates on our little guy...

Weight: 8lbs, 5oz (as of his two week appointment so I'm sure he's more now)

Length: 21in (again, as of his two week appointment)

Hair: Even though Bennett still has a ton of hair, a lot of it has fallen out! It's also growing back a lot lighter. It has started to get out of control (especially after bath time!) but I love it! His hair is definitely one of my favorite things about him.

Eyes: Really blue! I'm hoping they stay that way : )

Clothes: Most newborn clothes still fit him but sometimes they're a little snug (depends on the brand). I have a feeling we'll be moving up to 0-3 months soon.

Diapers: Newborn but will probably move to size 1 in the next few weeks.

Sleeping: It depends on the day but typically Bennett is a great sleeper! I think his favorite time to sleep is in the car. He is OUT before we even get out of the neighborhood. He's started sleeping longer stretches at night..typically feeds at midnight and then again at 5 or 6am. For the first few weeks Bennett slept in our room with us in his MamaRoo but a few weeks ago we started sleeping in the living room because it's a lot easier to be near the kitchen in the middle of the night for feedings. BT is still sleeping in his MamaRoo and loves it! I finally got brave enough to let Bennett take a few naps in his crib. He does pretty good but only lasts 30 minutes or so. baby steps!

Likes: Bennett loves to be on the go! His best days are when we are crazy busy and going a million places. He loves being in the car and going on walks. He is also obsessed with his paci and wants it in his mouth 24/7 (cute right now but could be a terrible thing down the road..ah!).

Dislikes: Bennett HATES being hungry. He breaks out into the saddest cry in the entire world when it is time to eat. He also hates having a poopy diaper (but who wouldn't?!) Other than the first few weeks of severe reflux and gas Bennett has been a really happy baby!

Eating: Feeding has been a struggle for us. I started breastfeeding in the hospital right away and things were going great. Bennett had no trouble latching, stayed awake the whole feeding, and seemed content when he was finished. Then we got home and everything changed. Every time I would BF he would cry SO hard after. I never felt like he was satisfied but I knew I couldnt nurse for hours to fill him up. When we went to his pediatrician 4 days after he was born we talked about options and decided to start supplementing with formula to help with his weight gain. Bennett took the bottle like a champ and still continued BF'ing. He never had any issues with nipple confusion or going back in forth between breast milk and formula. The only problem was I was still having to give a bottle every time after BF'ing because he was never satisfied. It made feeding him a really huge ordeal and not enjoyable at all for either of us. I kept with it for a few more weeks and tried everything to get my supply up but ultimately decided to switch to formula exclusively. Was this what I had in mind for feeding my baby? Not at all. But I knew it was the right decision for us. I felt so guilty when we made the switch (still do..) but I'm trying to remind myself that I am doing my best and this does not make me less of a mom. (reallllly trying to believe that as I type this....)

Milestones: Bennett has been doing really good with holding his head up. Any time we are holding him he pulls his head up and looks around. I know this is going to sound crazy and I wish I had video evidence to prove it but the other day before tummy time Bennett rolled over from his back to his front. I couldn't believe it and of course he never did it again but I still thought it was super awesome :) Bennett has also been smiling a lot over the last few days. Adam and I have both seen him do it and it's so stinking cute!!

Baby items we can't live without: Obviously during the first couple of months we aren't going to use too much baby equipment but there are a few things we couldn't live without right now! The MamaRoo has been so good for napping/sleeping. Bennett loves the car ride option ; ) We also love Wubbanub pacis! BT has the brown puppy and is seriously obsessed with it. If it's not in his mouth he has his arms around it. I love that it's a lovey and a paci in one. Also, when I was breast feeding the My Brest Friend pillow was a MUST!



I am so thankful to be a mama and even though it can be challenging sometimes I feel like I am really starting to get into a groove with taking care of Bennett and it has been so amazing. I still can't believe he is ours forever : )

And this is how BT feels about photo shoots.... ; )


2014

Highlights of 2014...

Greatest lesson learned: It's okay to say NO! I have a very hard time with over committing to things. I jumped at every opportunity that was presented to me professionally this past year and it really stretched me thin. I am nearing the end and can finally see a light at the end of the grad school & gifted certification tunnel. (THANK GOODNESS)

Hardest thing this year: balancing being pregnant, working full time an hour away from home, and being in grad school + getting my gifted certification. To say I was busy this past year is an extreme understatement and something I hope to fix once I'm done with school : )

Favorite memory: The birth of our son, Bennett Tucker!

What I love about 2014: Being pregnant was rough, but becoming a mom was the most amazing thing to ever happen to me. Although I only got to be a mom for less than a month of 2014 it was my absolute favorite thing that happened!

Looking forward to 2015...

Want to learn: How to balance life as a working mama. I know it's going to be tough but I really want to be intentional about leaving work on time and not taking a lot of work home. I want to be completely present for my family when I am at home.

Want to get better at: Living a healthy life. Getting my body back into shape about birth is really important to me and I really want to be conscious about the choices I am making in regards to food and exercise.

Goals for 2015:
1. Get back in shape after having Bennett
2. Graduate from grad school & finish my gifted certification
3. Land a job closer to home (!!!!)
4. Continue checking things off my 101 in 1001 list
5. Create products for Teachers Pay Teachers

And like I've done for the past few years, here is a recap of 2014..enjoy!

January
I started grad school, we worked on decorating our new home, & had a LOT of snow days!




February
More snow days, hosted our first event in our home, and took a surprise trip to Mississippi!


March
Spent the weekend in Atlanta with my blog BFF's, we painted our kitchen, and got pregnant!



April
Adam turned 27, I shared my day as a teacher, and had my last small group with my college girls


May
Announced our pregnancy!


June


July
Spent a week at Disney for Carolyne-Grace's 4th birthday


August
Started my 2nd year of teaching (with the best class ever!!), did A LOT of shopping for Bennett, and started football season


September
Spent a lot of time working on my classroom this month, only blogged one time and was extremely sick the entire month (ugh, don't miss that at all!)


October
Had some Halloween fun with my students, had our last baby free weekend, and went to Jacksonville for the Georgia/Florida game



November
Re-branded my blog and launched Classic City Creative, packed my hospital bag, and shared some products I used up


December
Gave birth to Bennett Tucker on December 4th, started so many Christmas traditions, and celebrated Bennett's first Christmas with tons of family events!


2014 was a year of growth. I spent every month except January and February pregnant and the entire year pretty much revolved around getting ready for our baby. I am excited to move on to a new year as a family of three. I can't wait to see what 2015 holds for us!